My one year journey complete...

Today I would like to say thank you to everyone who has supported me on this remarkable journey. When I started Insanity exactly one year ago, I had no idea I would finish it… especially after the fit test, as I lay on the couch, red faced and sweaty, sobbing and hyperventilating. I remember it like it was yesterday. I felt so stupid. I felt like a failure and I hadn’t even started! “What was I thinking? I can’t do this! Why did I say I would do this!? I’m too fat for this. It’s just the way I am now.” I think the only reason I moved forward from that day was because I simply couldn’t stay where I was… the bottom.

Losing my father in law was hard, and caused stress on my family. Taking care of my husband and daughter through that difficult time took its toll on me. But losing our second baby at nearly six months along was devastating, and spun me into a depression I don’t think I ever thought I’d get out of.  I went through the motions and pretended to enjoy life, but each day was a struggle. I didn’t eat or sleep enough—and I took care of everyone but myself. When I finally decided to turn the corner, when I couldn’t get any lower, when I knew I needed to be a better mother for my daughter, a better wife to my husband, and finally take care of ME, I went all in.

Exactly one year ago, Elijah was only 4 weeks old. I was off and running. Since then I have completed Insanity, T25, P90x3, the 21 Day Fix, and PiYo. Yesterday I finished Insanity for the second time—taking it back to where it all started.  I have lost a total of 65 lbs. and 54.5 inches- all through proper nutrition, exercise, and with the support of my new Beachbody family, as well as my wonderful husband, siblings, parents, and all of you guys.

But more than what I have lost is what I have gained. Confidence. A belief in myself. A community of like-minded individuals who love to help others. The gift of being of service to others on their journeys as well. Being able to keep up with Olivia as she plays in the yard, and chase Elijah all over the house. Feeling confident in my clothes, feeling attractive with my spouse. Being successful. Not quitting.

There is nothing keeping you from becoming your best self. There is no reason why you can’t be on your OWN priority list. I know I deserved it, and my family is better for it. So thanks for everything, everyone. What an amazing year.